I can’t believe it, I actually passed the CQE exam. I woke up this morning after 2 nightmares in which I found out I failed the test. I woke up sick to my stomach! That massive failure during my younger years at NIU still occupies a spot deep in my heart. It’s amazing how much that failure has pushed me. In the back of my mind I can’t bear the thought of another failure like that. That awful fear has pushed me through finishing my Bachelors, and now the grueling self-study for the CQE examination. I have to say that I enjoyed the math/stats material. A lot of the other was often a little to theoretical to be useful, and because of that I had a difficult time with some of those type of questions. I really can’t believe that it took me the entire 5 hours! I thought for sure I would have time to go back through and check the questions I wasn’t confident about. No luck. It ended up being an all or nothing shot. However, I can’t forget God in all of this. On many occasions I prayed that I would “get” the material. There was so much to cover, and I had to move so fast that I was afraid that I would get to June and forget what I learned in December. On the day of the test, I prayed that God would help me recall what I had learned and help me keep my nerves in check. He delivered! I thought it would be contrary to pray that he would help me pass. I thought to myself, He can’t realistically just help me pass if I hadn’t, at some point, learned the material. That would run counter to His character. I actually think I probably prayed that way at times in the past, but in this experience discovered that was a little immature and short sighted. All in all, it was a great experience. I feel like I have achieved something that will allow my peers, employers, and myself to see that I have measured up to a set standard. I’m glad that it was so tough. If it wasn’t it would be meaningless, but realistically, to most of the world it still is! I mean, seriously, what normal person knows or even cares what a CQE is? It is a great personal achievement for me though, and can’t wait to apply all that I have learned.
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